This thing wants me to go bankrupt
Dude!! I HAVE to stop living paycheck to paycheck. I don’t need the stress of this anymore! Not to mention, I am never going to be able to afford a new car. As previously stated, I am completely addicted to ebay. I am pretty out of control. Not to mention that the iPhone ebay app doesn’t help at all. The damn thing pings me every time something I am watching is about to end. And I have to check it. Because it might be at a killer price and I feel like I need it.
And now, all of these other sites are sending me emails too. Like ModCloth. And about their ridiculous 70% off sale. And I love Modcloth and I wish I had their entire website in my closet right now and I just had to buy that thing (jumpsuit) that looks like shit on me now that I have it but it looked really great on the model and…’sigh’
So, this is a new beginning! I am declaring!! I am going to finish cleaning my room and getting rid of clothing items I don’t need. For the record, this will be the third time I will be cleaning out said closet in the past 2 months. I need to let go in stages. Even though I will probably never wear that tan leather Enyce shirt with no back again, but, I might.
Anyway, no more buying a whole new wardrobe every paycheck. I do these things because I don’t feel “cool” enough, I have realized. I feel like I look like this:
When I really look like this:
Cool has to come from within, I am finding out. You know what else? It doesn’t feel very zen to have no money but tons of clothes everywhere. You just have a mess…or I just have a mess in this situation. So…yeah. Things are going to change around here. I have declared it. Next up, saving money by quitting smoking. That is going to be difficult.
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February 5, 2010 at 9:36 am
Nicole
I just went through the exact same realization about myself… it wasn’t related to clothes though I probably could look at my absurd closets and realize that most of them are there because of my issues about my self-perception.
We can quit smoking together (as soon as I finish this carton :) )
Hope you have a great weekend!
Nic
February 5, 2010 at 12:06 pm
SoMi's Nilsa
They say to cut up your credit cards if you can’t afford to use them. Well, maybe you need to disable the EBay app. As painful as it is, what you don’t know won’t kill you.
To make it more enticing, why not make a pact with yourself … that at the end of the month when you have money left over, you’ll put some of it to good use (savings account, credit card debt, etc.) and use some of it to treat yourself to something special. That way, you’re not really entirely quitting the good life cold turkey.
February 5, 2010 at 12:14 pm
Windsor Grace
That is good advice. I don’t have credit cards tho, and I have been really good about not using the ebay app the past few days. Slowly but surely, it is all good. Also, I was kind of freaking out when I wrote this post, but now I feel better. It wasn’t really as bad as I was thinking it was. Thanks!
February 5, 2010 at 2:19 pm
Rachel
My husband smoked for years and tried several times to quit. The thing that finally helped him quit for good (2 years now!) was the site http://whyquit.com/. OK, the site is crazy cheesy and the videos are too, but the advice this guy offers is what helped my man quit. Maybe it can help you too.
Oh, and you are not alone in the buying cool clothes department. I love Mod Cloth too, but since I’m not built like a 12 year old, I look ridiculous in most of that stuff. And I end up feeling fat too.
Good luck with your new path. You can do it! I think you’re cool already – hello! The Bloggess granted you an interview. Um, that pretty much says you’re cool. :-)
February 5, 2010 at 2:30 pm
Windsor Grace
Thanks, I really appreciate it! I will definitely check out the site and I have this book called, Quitting Smoking the Easy way that people swear by. Thank you for your nice words!
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